Today Hailey is having her tonsils and adenoids removed. By the time you read this she may be done. Surgery is scheduled for 9:30 (MST) and we had to be there at 8:00 this morning. We will be at the Hospital for a minimum of 6 hours and the surgery is expected to take one hour.
I am not a wimpy mom, a sappy one yes, but wimpy no - however this has been tough for me. Lauren had anesthesia once when she had to have some teeth pulled. She is very fearful at Dr's offices and the safest course of action was to put her under. I cried when they put the mask on her face, I cried as I left the room and I cried in the waiting room. But the worst part was actually watching her wake up. Lauren is a very serious, black and white kind of gal. When she was up "enough" she said "What happened? Where did the time go?" she knew - she knew she had been "gone" and that broke my heart.
I don't expect the same from Hailey, in fact I expect to POP up rather than then waking real slow - I expect her to be in more pain though and that breaks my heart too. I have cried a few times just thinking about it. I know it is certainly in her best interest that we do this today - but I have to say it also flat out sucks.
What have I learned?
That sometimes being a mom flat out sucks.
I will try to post tonight with all the final outcome details - In the meantime - Lindsay's adorable 2 year old son is going in for surgery tomorrow (Wed) - he needs tubes and I am sure Lindsay is feeling about as fabulous as I am so please take a minute to drop by and give her and Sammy a little love.